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Bryony
02 July 2007 @ 02:50 pm
oh well damn  
Its been so long since I was on here.
I dont have the internet at my house.
so I dont know when Ill get the chance
to get on here.
anyway here is an update.

FOOD WISE.
Im currently only letting myself eat between
75-340 cals a day.
this is
Activia yoghert for breakfast.
Protein shake for lunch.
chicken breast for dinner.
I refuse to eat on sundays

EXERCISE WISE.
Im doing 60mins of cardio
6 days a week.

LIFE WISE.
I live with my BoyFriend.
and my best friend and her boyfriend.
All I do is work and workout. lol
save money.
Life is actually going really good.
and besides my weight only being 98lbs
Im pretty happy. so yay.

Im watching my moms house the rest of the week
so Ill be able to update. but after that not so
much.

k

Love and Kisses
 
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Bryony
12 March 2007 @ 05:35 am
93lbs.  
The goal is to be 93lbs
by June 12.

I hate my body
 
 
Current Mood: fat ass
 
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Bryony
09 March 2007 @ 04:15 am
hmm  
went to the gym yesterday
and burned 388 cals on the elap.
felt pretty good.
I dont think ill make it today
as i have to clean and wait for
the inspecter guy to come look
at the house.

:/

lost a pounds since yesterday.
Im pretty happy about that.
I got my scale back from my moms
soo YAY.
 
 
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Bryony
08 March 2007 @ 04:24 am
fail  
I was doing sooo good
yesterday. I didnt eat anything
was feeling great, went to the
gym and burned 276 cals. and then
I go home and have a diet soda.
then the EVIL 3 o'clock rolls
and around, and what do I do.
thats right, Binge.
I didnt purge though, Im scard
to death of getting in that
cycle.

eerr. Today is a new day though
right? so in stead of 30mins
at the gym, im going to do
60.

Im such a FAT failor.
 
 
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Bryony
07 March 2007 @ 04:43 am
sleep....  
Im so tired.
I wish I could just crawl
back into bed, but i have to
go to school.
:/
its only Wednesday!!!

Going to the gym today.
Im going to start going
back. To speed up losing weight

The Goal 97 lbs
 
 
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Bryony
06 March 2007 @ 05:10 am
socks  
 
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Bryony
06 March 2007 @ 04:57 am
^_^  
I am.
Fat.
Depressed.
Weak.
Angry.

I wish I could just wake up
and be skinny, I hate how
slow weight lose goes.

LAME
 
 
Current Mood: needing coffeehh
 
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Bryony
05 March 2007 @ 05:29 pm
Lovely Bones  
I'd like to think it's all a dream
Someone please come and rescue me
Don't want to see my family torn
Left me with a soul without my lovely bones
We are alive tonight
I am free, free for the rest of my life and
Me it's out of my control
Without my lovely bones
I sit and watch my friends today
I'm gone and wish that I could stay
I guess this is how it's supposed to be
Left me with a soul without my lovely bones
We are alive tonight
I am free, free for the rest of my life and
Me it's out of my control
Without my lovely bones
As I was thinking forgot to swallow, a burning feeling about tomorrow
And I finally stop to find it written on your face
You did what you could for me, you did what you could for me
I sit and watch it all go by
My father wants to make it right
The secrets buried deep inside of me
Left me with a soul without my lovely bones
We are alive tonight
I am free, free for the rest of my life and
Me it's out of my control oh
Without my lovely bones
We are alive tonight
I am free, free for the rest of my life and
Me it's out of my control
Without my lovely bones
 
 
Current Mood: in love.
 
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Bryony
04 March 2007 @ 02:12 pm
eeepp  
Every time I eat something
I get really dizzy and I feel like
im about to throw up.

uck uck.
food sucks.

its back to fasting. starting.....now.

:)
 
 
Current Mood: nah nah nah
 
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Bryony
27 February 2007 @ 03:26 pm
tramp-o-lin  
I got a mini trampolin yesterday
so i can bounce in my house. haha.
that thing kicks my ass.
I love it.
Everyone should get one. I got mine for
19 bucks. woo

xoxo
 
 
Current Mood: yay bitches
 
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Bryony
26 February 2007 @ 06:21 am
o.o  
Im fat
 
 
Current Mood: coffeeeeee
 
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Bryony
23 February 2007 @ 05:15 am
So basically...  
I went over to my moms
yesterday, went off and found
my scale. I fougt with myself for
30mins about getting on or not.
finally I got on and I wished I hadnt
instead of my numbers going down they
had went up!!
I dont undersand how this happen!!
I feel like a complete and totall failor.
This weekend Im just going to lay in bed
and not get out!!!

:(
 
 
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Bryony
22 February 2007 @ 04:52 am
^_^  
Today is going to be a good day.
I got my migraine meds, yesterday. I got new
ones, I dont have to eat with these just drink
a glass of water. sooo YAY. I still dont have
a scale. I know ive lost weight, I can feel it
I just wish I could see it. Need the scale. My
goal is be 97-95lbs by April.
I hate weighing 120lbs. i hate it, hate it hate it.

:/
 
 
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Bryony
21 February 2007 @ 08:20 pm
La De Ta  
I hate my body
so fucking much.

stupid fat
 
 
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Bryony
21 February 2007 @ 08:43 am
amaaaazing  
So I was feeling down yesterday.
missing will and everything. But then
Adam called me and we talked for ever!!
we both have these really big crushes
on eachother, but before we could become
more then "just friends" he had to move.

:(

But we talk to eachother all the time on
the phone. He is coming back to town in
either April or May & is moving back with
me to Las Vegas. so yay. He really makes me
feel better about everything.

anyway.

Still fastting. I dont have a scale here
so I havnt weighed myself. Which is driving
me completely insane.

oh well.
 
 
Current Mood: weee
Current Music: Goo Goo Dolls
 
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Bryony
20 February 2007 @ 06:04 pm
Iris  
And Id give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
Youre the closest to heaven that ill
Ever be
And I dont want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later its over
I just dont want to miss you tonight

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you cant fight the tears that aint
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know youre alive

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

 
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Bryony
20 February 2007 @ 07:08 am
o.o  
I have many things to do today.
I have to go to the doctor because I
didnt go to school today.
:/
I really hate school. I can't fucking
take that place. I want to drop out.
I have to go get a newspaper today to
because I need to find a new job so I
can save some money and get out of this
place.
THEN I have to go to the pound and talk
to them about aboting this dog. I think
that is going to be the highlight of my
day.

Im still fat.
Need to lose at least 30 pounds.

xoxo
 
 
Current Mood: needing coffeehh
 
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Bryony
19 February 2007 @ 10:35 pm
pain  
I binged.
Purged
and then burned myself 7 times.

I fucking hate this!!

why doesnt anyone love me?
why do I have to be so miserable and
depressed all the time?
 
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Bryony
19 February 2007 @ 10:33 am
idoit  
Will has left me
for good this time. I hope anyway.
for another girl.
I cant him anymore, always needing
to go away for weeks at a time to
"step back and think about us
what the fuck ever.

Now I can get back to straving myself
without him saying, "stop it"


I secretly just want to go to sleep
and not wake up.

:/
 
 
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Bryony
19 February 2007 @ 06:40 am
longterm fast  
Im going to fast until im
in the double digets again.
I can not take this anymore.
Im not even a self-harmer but I
have started because I just can
not cope with anything anymore.

:/

Long-Term Fast starts NOW.
 
 
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